devour

do you mind
if i devour you?
you are like
a bright yellow
egg yolk.
when i am
nearest you
i feel
the sun.

A morning interlude

My son told me this morning
Of a hurt long ago
We were working
But something reminded him of a hard name
That had been spoken
The story brief, and in the telling
Not such a hurt at all
But he looked down at his coloring and sighed
When I was telling, he said
I colored outside the lines
I wondered myself
How often
I might have done the same

The Death of Helen Burns

no amount of time
can change me
when I think of you
I feel my heart in my chest
like a wounded animal
it staggers
it cries blood and
heaves viscera
I am no huntsman
you know my tiny hands
I cannot give it rest

I'm struck as I reread this passage in Jane Eyre by Bronte's focus on the outdoor world.  She describes a young Jane set free across the wild moors from dawn until sundown, while the whole school is consumed with sickness.  The wild flowers, the river, the sky, the low mountains - all are described beautifully.  Only as complete blackness descends does Jane finally enter the house.  Jane tarries the longest outdoors - sending companions away, staying in the garden to plant some roots by moonlight.  She is reluctant - one senses even Bronte as the writer is reluctant - to enter the sickness and to confront Helen's death.  I wrote this poem thinking about Helen. But I was also thinking about how any love poem I write from Jane's childhood would reverberate through the years to also encompass Jane's relationship with Rochester - which also features a staggering loss.

resurgam

should it matter

that you are here

a church yard stone

does it matter who

unmade me

or that I was unmade

the stream

the low ground

our bare feet left there

impressions

filled with water

they did not last

there were white stones

no bridges

in crossing them

our feet

stained them black

New Poetry Project

For a number of years now, I've been posting here a variety of love poems.  I am a novelist by trade, but I've always felt that poetry keeps me honest. So I write it. Even in a day and age where love poems seem slightly embarrassing, something best confined to heart covered notebooks in the 5th Grade. 

That's a shame really, because the world needs more honesty. More love poems.  And anyone whose been in love knows that real love doesn't fit neatly in the pages of heart covered notebooks. 

After a number of years, I've put my love poems together in a book and I'm looking for a publisher.  So it feels like time to start a new poetry project.  One thing that strikes my passion is Jane Eyre - a love story writ large.  I've loved it since the 5th Grade. I've begun a new series of poems rewriting the book in verse. Here is the first in this series.  If you've read the book, you'll recognize the opening window scene.

 

the view

when I was a child
there was a certain window
where I would sit and draw the curtain
it would rain only for me
the wind pushing the wet, shivering birds
across the garden.
there were stories and
I would read them
it did not matter
who owed the books
- the words, the rain, the birds
they were mine.

wound

Oh papaya,

I am not certain

your flesh

was worth

this cut.

you have no teeth

- my own devotion

makes me bleed.

pressed to my lips

pressed to another’s

you are the same.

Fall Leaves

Here is the difference.
When I was young it didn't matter

the color or condition.
I gathered all the fall leaves
to save them
with wax and paper.
Now even the most perfect leaf
red –the color you preferred
I’ve learned
does not belong to me
an old believer
here by chance.

 

On the Occasion of an Abundance of Maple Seeds

 

You brought me home a maple seed
Held aloft like a magical dragon wing.
You had never noticed them before
And  wanted me too to try
To make it spin to earth.
And I thought -
Child
   Child
       Child
How can it be that I am the tree?
I am this seed
Falling
   Falling
     Turning and whirling
when you are close to me
Through this brief time
We are blessed
To share together.

worm love

tonight our love

feels like a worm
summoned to the surface
by the vibration of the rain.
my dim cluster of nerves
- a brain of sorts - you might call it
struggles to remember
this sound of danger.
-have I heard it before?
like an earthworm I'm
washed away
by less water than it might
take to fill a child's little cup.